I was afraid this time would come,
I wasn't prepare to face this kind of hurting from within...

Since yesterday, I became so unwell, sick and stressed because of many things that came to my mind. About love?? maybe... Today I seek help from my classmate, Kim about all my confusions in mind,. he said "Let it be...Give it a chance", but I don't want to feel that hurt again...

...Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

'till now, I really don't know myself better than others... I'm still searching on my 'true' me!!!
Some questions still on my mind, I really don't know its answer yet... When will I get it???

I can make it through the rain,I can stand up once again,

On my own, and I know,I am strong enough to mend...

I admit it is hard for me to keep this burden in me, sa I shared it all to my friends to lighten up my feelings even a little. But despite this problems and confusions, I know for myself that I can make through...

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There's nothing new again with my life today, same as yesterday, light, unwell and stressed by so many pre-occupant... from the start of my day, I began to shut up in my own desk and chair. then I saw Kelsey, a friend of mine, I decided to go to her for some talks and 'kamustahan'., we reviewed for our quiz in Theology. Think she wants me to pass the quiz so we review more, thoroughly... I can't keep my eyes off her for no reasons on my mind, maybe she's pure and real. By that time, I keep on searching for Dane, I need her for me to have my outlet, apparently, she's not around, so I stepped out of our room to feel the warmth of the outside air. I began to think and think and think for some things rushing and flowing in my mind, my tears want to fall for that helplessness that time.

There's a funny one, while I'm reviewing for the quiz, my tears start to fall, for such don't know reasons. do you think it's because of the hardness of Theology?? not really... Caramba!! the quiz was quite long and hard...

Next on the line, MATH, so precious one... don't know how to perform all that operations and symbols... duh?!?!

Lastly, Biolgy class, it's a yes for me!!! our professor was not around, so I begin to mingle with Dane, begin some talks and everything. But, it's not enough to forget all those hurts and doubts inside, so again I stepped out for awhile and when I begun to open the door, Cena, my first found companion, pulled me because she want me to cheer her up but I said, I'm down too. so she began to talk to me about what I felt... after she gave advises...

-> Thinks that was my day's highlights....

***Confessional:***

Can't take this anymore... start again to breakdown into my own pillows...

CIAO!!!